NOT ENOUGH

I hate feeling like this
Like I'm not good enough
I hate acting this way
Like I'm in a badly written play.
I hate being here without
My self-confidence,
It left me some time ago
And now I've no defense.
I'm not the way I seem to be
I'm not the girl you think is me
I'm not the happy go fuck me freak
And I'm a little scared to speak
Out of turn
Far too loud
Way too much or not enough.
I hate feeling like this
Like nothing I do could ever be
Good enough, good enough
For who you think is me
I'm not the way I seem to be
I'm not the girl you think is me
I'm not the happy go fuck me freak
I'm just ordinary
Not good enough
For you.